~Motivational Monday~

So, I survived another Monday. I dread hate Mondays. They suck. Its the day that I run around crazy trying to get stuff done for the week, try to tackle all of my chores, get to soccer practice, come home make dinner, work on homework and get to bed by a decent time. Whew! It's the only day I can count on having it off work. Plus I have to wake up early and I am so not a morning person. This is why I looovvvveee night shift!


Today was another manic Monday. I watched my friends daughter, who is precious, and kind of makes me want another baby, especially a little girl. Maybe. One Day. Anyway...I digress. We went grocery shopping and I planned out my weeks menu. I planned {healthy} meals and snacks and actually did something different. I took my little sisters advice and prepackaged amounts of carrots, grapes, pre-cut my celery and put it all into Ziploc baggies. I put them into the meat drawer in the fridge so I can grab something healthy on-the-go.

I also ordered my ADVOCARE cleanse!!! {whoop whoop} This will be  my third time doing the cleanse and I have come to like it more and more each time. The cleanse is 10 days of clean eating, a fiber drink, a herbal cleanse pill and a probiotic system restore. It's easy, and I can handle it for 10 days. There is a 14 day period afterwards focuses on weight  management, altogether it  is called the 24 day challenge. The first 2 times I have not been able to finish the challenge because I got wicked headaches and dizzy spells from the MNS  This time WILL be different. I am going to try to stay eating clean after the 10 day period. and do my own version of the 24 day challenge, just without the MNS.  There are tons of boards on Pinterest that have recipe ideas for clean eating, everything from breakfast to deserts. Yes, there are desserts that you can have after the 10 day cleanse portion. :)



I renewed my gym membership today as well. I picked up a list of when the classes were and figured out some days that I could go. I miss my little sister today more than usual. She used to live with me and she was my driving force to get to the gym.  Rebecca would make me go to the gym or to boot camp even when I didn't want to go. She's bossy that little thing. She was my motivator, my coach, my support system, my sweat sister and my best friend. I have put on so much weight since she left, maybe from loneliness maybe from depression but I need to lose it...quick!

My main motivation for this cleanse to jump start my weight loss happened this weekend.  I met the boyfriend's family...EEK! They were awesome to say the least but something was said that stuck out in my mind. His sister was talking about the other brother. She, (who is absolutely beautiful and skinny and fit), said that her brother wasn't skinny anymore because he had a muffin top. UHH....thank God I chose to wear loose fitting clothing because I have one too! Yikes....! Little does she know that I am rockin' one right along that brother....yes, we have something in common!Not. UGH. I need to do this. I will do this. I can't wait for this cleanse to get here. I'm hoping by Wendesday I can get started on it. Clean eating and exercise here I come!  I want to be skinny again...I {need}to be skinny again.

The beginning of the end....

I have ALWAYS struggled with my weight. For as long as I could remember I was the {FAT} sister...I even refer to myself as the "Khloe" of the Kardashian sisters to others. If you don't know why I am referring to myself as Khloe...welllll you are obviously not a Keeping up With The Kardashians fan like my sisters and me. You should watch it. They are a trashy lil family of American socialites that are each famous for their own weird little way. They make simple things in life seem like huge life events and have way to much power in their rich hands.....anyways.... Both of my little sisters are beautiful and skinny...like super skinny just like the other Kardashian sisters. Like eat whatever they want and don't gain an ounce skinny. They are petite and small framed....I am the opposite. I am big boned, and fluffy, just like Khloe.

See..thats me, Khloe...the giant on the end.

I know where my weight has come from though...well most of it. For starters, I am an emotional eater...yup I am! Boredom=Eating. Depression=Eating. Anxiety=Chocolate. Stress=Wine. Loneliness....well that's a feast y'all. I live alone so there is no one to tell me that my bottle of wine is not an appropriate dinner choice. Except for my son, and that is where the rest of the weight comes from. That {wonderful}baby weight has stuck around. I nursed that lil chunk a monk for months and never lost the dreaded baby weight. I kept all 32 pounds around...and still have them ***8 YEARS LATER***

I was snuggling with my little man on the couch {being lazy} and we were watching Extreme weight loss. This nurse lost 145 pounds, exactly half of her weight. And she looked smokin' hot! Little man turned to me and said "Mom, I want you to lose 145 pounds so you can be skinny and look pretty like her" {stab to the heart and leave me speechless}OMG....little man thinks I'm fat. This is how he views his mom. Is he embarrassed of me? Does he think it's ok to be overweight? What am I thinking....I want need my son to be proud of me!!!!

So here I am....starting my journey, my journey to become MILF status. If you don't know what that is, look it up. I will be it one day. I have my ideas and goals. I am going to take my measurements, order my ADVOCARE cleanse and rock this! It'll be life changing. I need it to be life changing. Follow me along the way, offer your suggestions and advice. Support me and encourage me... I am going to need it. It's going to be a rough journey with a lot of step-backs along the way.

This is my diary...my diary of a {wannabe} skinny mom.