The beginning of the end....

I have ALWAYS struggled with my weight. For as long as I could remember I was the {FAT} sister...I even refer to myself as the "Khloe" of the Kardashian sisters to others. If you don't know why I am referring to myself as Khloe...welllll you are obviously not a Keeping up With The Kardashians fan like my sisters and me. You should watch it. They are a trashy lil family of American socialites that are each famous for their own weird little way. They make simple things in life seem like huge life events and have way to much power in their rich hands.....anyways.... Both of my little sisters are beautiful and skinny...like super skinny just like the other Kardashian sisters. Like eat whatever they want and don't gain an ounce skinny. They are petite and small framed....I am the opposite. I am big boned, and fluffy, just like Khloe.

See..thats me, Khloe...the giant on the end.

I know where my weight has come from though...well most of it. For starters, I am an emotional eater...yup I am! Boredom=Eating. Depression=Eating. Anxiety=Chocolate. Stress=Wine. Loneliness....well that's a feast y'all. I live alone so there is no one to tell me that my bottle of wine is not an appropriate dinner choice. Except for my son, and that is where the rest of the weight comes from. That {wonderful}baby weight has stuck around. I nursed that lil chunk a monk for months and never lost the dreaded baby weight. I kept all 32 pounds around...and still have them ***8 YEARS LATER***

I was snuggling with my little man on the couch {being lazy} and we were watching Extreme weight loss. This nurse lost 145 pounds, exactly half of her weight. And she looked smokin' hot! Little man turned to me and said "Mom, I want you to lose 145 pounds so you can be skinny and look pretty like her" {stab to the heart and leave me speechless}OMG....little man thinks I'm fat. This is how he views his mom. Is he embarrassed of me? Does he think it's ok to be overweight? What am I thinking....I want need my son to be proud of me!!!!

So here I am....starting my journey, my journey to become MILF status. If you don't know what that is, look it up. I will be it one day. I have my ideas and goals. I am going to take my measurements, order my ADVOCARE cleanse and rock this! It'll be life changing. I need it to be life changing. Follow me along the way, offer your suggestions and advice. Support me and encourage me... I am going to need it. It's going to be a rough journey with a lot of step-backs along the way.

This is my diary...my diary of a {wannabe} skinny mom.